I’m really happy to be in college. Even though it’s a huge change from high school regarding the difficulty level and where I came from, there are some amazing professors who inspire me everyday.
To be honest, I’ve had some dark days thinking that I’m not good enough and lost my self confidence. I used to question myself everyday whether if what I’m doing is worth it or not, or should I spend the time on something else… There’re time that I spent studying in advance for an exam for a straight two weeks but somehow still score lower than my expectation. But then, I’ve realize that I shouldn’t base my lifestyle upon expectations but rather long term goals.
Being here, it’s not about meeting people’s expectation but rather personal improvement. I’m glad that I’ve learned to stop comparing myself to everybody else & dropped myself from the whole competing crowd. Honestly, not everybody have the same start and nobody go at the same pace so it doesn’t even matter who’s there first. It’s not about how fast someone could go but rather if someone have the motivation to continue everyday to get there. Then eventually, everybody will be at the same place. I’ve finally learned to be proud of the little things that I accomplish everyday. I actually like the person I am now a lot more just because I definitely am more humble and respectful towards others.
It took me awhile to be comfortable with this transition… but now that I’m at this point, I’m just glad that I’m slowly growing as a whole.