The reason why I am most attracted to you is that you give me just the right amount of space. You’d recognize it when I want you close and when I want some time alone by myself. I’m sorry for being a complicated fuck but somehow you just always get me perfectly. You have no idea how much I appreciate your little texts to motivate me when I’m tired in the library or just when I’m about to give up. I know when it’s hard on me, it’s even harder on you because you’d always be there for me. It’s surprising how you haven’t left yet despite my ignorance sometimes. You keep me sane when I’m at my lowest and you give me the right amount of attention just to keep me around. You have no idea how much I appreciate you and the fact that I have you around. I don’t tell you that enough nor give you much affection lately, but just know that you’re always on my mind every once and then. Because honestly, library life sometimes get lonely as fuck and I’m just glad that you’re always available for the little phone calls to keep me awake. <3
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I don’t even know how many times in the past I’ve let the good ones go just because of the consistent belief and assumption that someone better is going to come along. I need to keep it in mind that I have someone here who’s trying their best to be up in my standard and I shouldn’t let that person get hurt or having the effort go to waste just because I’m in the wrong. I just honestly hate how my ego always having me ended up taking people for granted and leaving me regretting it in the long run. Maybe I just have to learn to accept myself first someday and know what I want before getting involved in hurting someone else unintentionally.
(Source: 27x7)
Nothing is more beautiful than the first love, ever. That’s when… you really don’t know what “love” really is but your feelings define the word “love”. Being together with another human being… it’s nice! But what’s nicer is having these curious vibes, wishful thinkings and often you find yourself unintentionally letting your heart out. But it feels comfortable and it makes you feel good. Then, it’s a beginning of something… You spend time trying to figure out why are you feeling this way after a kiss… It’s like you’re putting your heart on a roller coaster and just traveled a few rounds… Although it is not your first kiss but it’s the kiss you spend the most time trying to contemplate about. You try and try to remember all the little details just like a kid paying full attention to put together a puzzle. Putting pieces together about how did you even catch those feelings. It’s beautiful because you’re vulnerable. It’s beautiful because you just don’t know what to expect. It’s just beautiful because it’s your first time and you don’t not hurt or damaged by anything before. You don’t mind surrendering yourself by putting your guards away and there was no protection wall that you surround yourself with. You don’t doubt but you trust. It’s when you sit alone, but you don’t feel alone. You don’t mind sitting all by yourself just waiting for that person’s return every time they’re gone because in your heart, you’ve already know it’ll be worth it.
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I wish there were obvious signals when you start liking somebody… Like just have a green and red arrow on top of their head like in the Sims or something… So I know to give it a go on the green light and time to stop on the red…
(Source: 27x7)
Going to college, I honestly wanted a very place of my own. I wanted to experience how it’d feel to be independent, late night shows, hanging out with friends at each other’s dorm, going to the university blvd to eat foods…etc. But I cannot imagine myself leaving my parents. It’s just that… they’ve done so much for both my siblings and I to get to where we are now… Without any complains, they’ve constantly put up with our frustrations, ignorance, and plenty of bad times. And I can feel the fact that they’re getting old and I honestly do not ever want to leave them alone. Time passes by really quick and I honestly don’t know how long I will have them for and I don’t want to take any second for granted. It’s strange and frightening thinking about this. But I don’t want to lose any body that I love. I cannot imagine my life without my parents. They are my source of motivation and comfort. On the worst days when I have nobody, I know I could always come home to my family and eventually my troubles will be gone.
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I secretly adore you.
It’s when you’re in the room and I’m afraid to look, but somehow you just caught my attention. You can shift my focus with your glowing smile. It’s almost impossible to ignore that you’re genuinely kind and intelligent. Your fierce and outspoken personality, your initiative self, strong on the surface but weak inside. I was honest when I said you weren’t my type. But somehow through the nights that we’ve spent together and you allowed me to slip inside the eyes of your mind. It’s crazy to imagine someone so happy have been through so much. But I guess we both have that connection. We’re trying to ignore our problems with good companies. Then how you keep getting close to me, extend your arms and held my hand for the first time. We continue talking for the rest of the night. But as time permit and was my time to leave, I wish I could have been there longer to hold you through your struggles. Just give me time. It’ll take me awhile to trust my own feelings again but I promise when the right time come, I’ll make sure you’re with the right one.
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Music silences the roaming thoughts each night. It calm the troubles by supressing the stress in the back alley of my mind and minimize it to the lowest level. Adding distractions into my head just to forget about the unconditional love I have towards this ghost that never leave me. Wishing feelings could evaporate like smokes and burn all the past history. But somehow, these thoughts always find a way to crawl through all the layers underneath my skin and make my heart ache. It have been awhile. Met many strangers and left many. But somehow, the feelings never mutually occur like it did before. I miss the feelings of deep infatuation, or even… in love. I can’t commit and force myself when the feelings isn’t enough to get myself into a relationship. I cannot to lie to myself or hurt the other person. It’s just one of those night that I’m reminiscing about the past and regret the decision I’ve made by calling it off. Don’t ever let someone who loves you go for a night of fun. Mistakes made, lesson learned.
(Source: 27x7)
You crave for affection. You thirst for what’s it’s called feeling loved. It’s because you offer so much but never received as much. You put in too much efforts and only received a portion. You don’t believe you deserve better, but in truth, you do. Forget that past. You took care of me that one night. You’ve told me your feelings towards me even though I’ve ignored it the next day. Don’t worry. In opposition, I’ll do everything and more that you’ve done for me. I’m shy with my feelings but I do have good intention and I’ll do anything to make you feel it. Like I said, I’ll take care of you. If you take shot, I’ll drive. If you spill your drunken thoughts, I’ll listen and take care of you. We’ll progress through our life together even if there’re constant battles, we’ll make it through.
(Source: 27x7)
The love that comes unexpected is the most beautiful. The moment when you thought you’d lost yourself and have no one to be there. But somehow someone come forward and just stay right by your side. Offer that support and become an emotional outlet where you could just pour our all your feelings until it’s drained.
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Walking down towards an unknown, dark path is discouraging. How can one be motivated enough to finish the trail when all hopes are drained;and the light at the end of the tunnel just never seems to appear. But this is when determination of one’s self occur. Keep faith within yourself.
(Source: 27x7)
Everybody is scared of failure.
I am extremely terrified of failure.
Lately, trying hard isn’t enough. It’s that time in life where struggles just tend to repeat; and efforts doesn’t count towards anything.
I will pick myself back up, soon.
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I love that we both have no idea what’s going on. We don’t know what we’re putting our efforts forward. But we are building friendship and a little further. I love how that connection sparks every time our eyes meet. I love that we linger for a few second after the convo just to catch a few more glimpses at each others. I love how you walk me to class and make sure to give me a big tight hug before I open the door. I love how we’re taking it at a steady pace to make everything stable.
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College is so fucking awesome. It’s definitely dominating my HS experiences even though I thought my HS years were already amazing.
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I wish I was a match to what people imagined me to be. I wish it was true that I have a perfect life and everything comes easy. People thinks too highly of me.. it’s almost of an obligation to be that person. Truth is, I am NOT that person. I’m just trying my best while being molded into this image that I cannot conform. I’d always work extremely hard to make others proud but I am so close to giving up. I’ve told myself that I would give myself space- comfortable space to harmonize my life between school, work, family and friends. But once those things are achieved, there’s absolutely no time for myself. I’m slowly going insane… to the point that I would just let go of everything. Turn that life in into ashes and live that life I want to live. I don’t even know why I’m doing this to myself. Maybe it’s the thought that if I work hard for a few years, the rest will be paid off. Or maybe, I’m just going to hard on myself. I love what I do- I just need a healthy proportion of it.
(Source: 27x7)
