#gettingthere

We don’t spend enough time getting to know people around us. Some, we do but many others- we don’t. Let it be a person we find interesting; a person fulfilled with attractive features, wits, or even that special radiance that glows… But we only spare a glance and forget about their existence as we leave. Then in reality, we complains about our town- classifying and describing how “boring” it is. We find people on the internet so interesting because they blog their thoughts openly. Truth is, there’re so many people and so much out there. Blame no one but ourselves that we haven’t spend enough time getting to know our surrounding yet.

(Source: 27x7)

When I find a person attractive, I’d like to get to know them more. There’re so much more behind the attractive features presented, it’s the personalities that I’d like to fall in love to. I’d like to take my time to become that person’s bestfriend. The type of love where I would understand the emotions just by a short glance.  Most people don’t know, but that’s the bestest feeling… Caring for the best friend and lover at the same time. It’s the kind of love so deep that you can read a person off the bat, take care of them, and share your comfort through mutual understanding.

(Source: 27x7)

Something I’ved missed would be the love we used to share. When we can’t get enough of each others. Being with you for the whole day, sleeping on cams, and you would give me good morning calls. And I’d still miss you when I’m sleeping. People might think we’re obsessive, but it’s the best stage in the relationship because our attraction force is so strong. And I’d always thought it was the cutest when you used to leave me those sticky notes on my car. Well, if you happen to stumble upon this, I just hope that you’re doing good.

(Source: 27x7)

I’m content with my life right now. I’ve made changes in my schedule. I decided to go and do what makes me happy. I decided to get rid of people who make no impact in my life and surround myself with people who does. These people who have goals and ambitions and give me the drive to pursue my own goals. No more of trying to cope with people who have different viewpoints than I do or dealing with negativity. I’m ready to settle down. No more of that flirting and leading people on because I have found someone that’s worth it. I’ve set my future goal straight. After arranging my priorities, shifting one to another, I’ve found the perfect one for myself and everything is finally balancing out. Sometimes, taking a break is necessary and I’m glad I took my break. Because after I come back, I can see more clearly and realize what I need for myself, where I belong instead of trying to mold myself into something I’m not. And honestly, I’m perfectly happy with life right now. I don’t know why it take me so long to realize that I shouldn’t give a shit about what people thinks because while others think that I have a perfect life, I don’t. But now that I am myself, everything is easier. Despite what any body says or thinks, my actions will prove myself in the future. Success is in my own hand and nobody’s opinion will interfere with that.

(Source: snoopeh)

Every time I tell myself to be careful and keep a relationship going, it always jinx it. Anyways, this time, I’m not going to say anything. I’ll let everything happen by nature. Of course, I’m still going to put effort and try my best just like always. But I’m going to let whatever happen happens and stop myself from trying to predict or over analyze any kind of situation because that usually ruins everything.

(Source: snoopeh)

Sometimes I lose myself. Sometimes I change too fast to the point I don’t even know who I am no more. It’s one of those moments in life where I just look at myself and wonder … like I seriously can’t tell who’s real and who’s fake around me anymore. And when I’m not sure of something, I don’t take it serious… I think that “growing up” thing is hitting me though. I constantly think about jobs and my future now… and also graduation. High school is starting to give me that out-of-place feeling because I’m not too big on partying, being stupid, making pranks, doing works or even putting any effort into making conversation and suchs no more… People are starting to get annoying and I just prefer to distance myself every time a group forms around me. Past couple of days though, I constantly ask myself these questions : ”Who am I?”, “What am I trying to do?”, and “Where am I going?”…  I hope I can figure these out soon. But whether it comes to my realization or not, I’ll still keep pushing myself forward.

(Source: snoopeh)

It’s such a pain having lip piercings and taking it off for game days…

(Source: snoopeh)

I want a marriage like my parents. It’ve been like 25 years and my parents still act like they’re just “dating” sometimes. They do like…corny ass shit like dad buying her roses and my mom would write cards with “I love you’s” and stuffs… I’d always laugh at them but little do they know how much I adore it.  I like how they’d always have each others’ back and always find compromise to work things out… I admire the way they deal through struggles and make decisions together. Like damn, always keep me thinking how am I going to get someone and have a relationship like that. 

(Source: snoopeh)

Do we need to establish a name for everything that we do? Do we have to define what it mean? Does status really make a significant difference?

If the feelings are there, it’ll stay there. You’re naive if you think leaving will make me chase you because all it do is making me think that you don’t want me anymore. And that I should give you space and that you’ll slowly pace to move on and find someone else that’s better.

Don’t expect me to read your head, because honestly, all I see is mixed signals. You do talk to many individuals, and I’m honestly not sure of who you are talking to. Even so, I’m sorry for everything I’ve caused. Sorry for stepping into your life. Sorry for not chasing you. Sorry for being selfish because I’m scared and tired of heartbreaks. And I’m sorry for stepping out of your life. Hopefully that’ll be better for you because you have high expectations when honestly, all I can offer is my time, my love and my comfort. You’re just confusing, and I’m done trying to please you. 

(Source: snoopeh)

It has always been hard for me to suppress myself out of an activity. But I don’t want to live my life without constraint, then regret it later on because there was no restriction. As much as I want something, I need to remind myself to set a limit before getting myself involved… I’m impulsive and I like to try and experience new things. And at times, it’s hard for me to excuse myself because of the inability resulted after “trying out” things. Therefore, this is a safety habit I should to practice. As nerdy as it sound, I don’t want to live my life without discipline. I want to be able to take responsibility for my own action and be able to take all the consequences. I don’t want to live a life that I will regret just because I had no restriction on myself. Having fun is one thing, and being responsible is another big thing. There just need to be a balance between the two and eventually it’ll weigh out the differences.

(Source: snoopeh)

A question that often remains on my mind - Are we testing each others? Or are we really falling apart?

I’m not always good at noticing these small things. I think about it, but I’m not quiet sure of picking an action to pursue. And people are complicated these days. I don’t want to come off as too “clingy”, but neither do I want to come off as “not caring enough”. I try to look for guidance but it occur that the other person is doing the same thing. Then it all result in both drifting away. One is more damaged than the others. I’m not too sure though.

This happens in a lot of my friendship too. All I can say is, wasting time to push someone away is a useless consumption of energy and effort that took so long to build up. Why is it so easy to be the opposite of what we are rather than what we really truly feel inside? I guess it’s true we’re all somewhat walking contradiction.

(Source: snoopeh)

Changes does occur unexpectedly sometimes. There’re no given options. No choice to chose to “agree” to “disagree”. And opinion isn’t needed. It happen without the majority’s approval. Sometimes life goes on. Stop being stuck in the past and blaming the whole world. There’s no choice but to learn to adapt to it. 

(Source: 27x7)

An improvement that’s needed to be made is how to walk away with a proper “goodbye”. Regardless of any unsaid feelings, any desire for more… it’s extremely essential to brush it off the shoulder and realize the importance of “walking away” with an altruistic act. It’s uncompromising but at the same time an indispensable act that’s needed to  be done. And I’ll cross my fingers for the other party to have an exhibit perspicacious judgment of my actions. Often times, I take off without a word, and the affect I left on people resulted in confusion. It’s just impossible to find a particular phrase to illustrate my heart when I can’t even collaborate with my mind… Despite my meticulous contribution into finding the exact way to solve these conflicts, I find starting over is the best solution. Rewind to the beginning and marks the inception.

(Source: snoopeh)